The short: I got myself a summer job at the Montreal Neurological Institute, which I am hoping is the start of a brilliant career in neuroscience. Then I’m finishing my undergrad and hopefully doing a PhD in the field, and with the amount of work I have coming up, I don’t think I’m going to be able to keep up with the changing world of Flash, and besides, I’m ready for a new challenge. I will be finishing the 2 chapters in the Open Source Flash Development book, and releasing amfphp 2 (you can thank Apress for that one!), and that’s going to be the end of it. I might keep one client so I don’t get too much into debt, but I won’t be updating the blog anymore, and I will step down from the head developer position for amfphp. If anybody wants to take care of amfphp, then please drop a comment or send an email on the list. Also if anyone wants to buy the 5etdemi domain or keep up the blog, let me know, as I’m thinking of bringing the the site down.
The long: Just six months ago, I was ready to fill in John Grden’s rather large shoes as interactive director at Blitz. What the heck happened in 6 months? A lot of things. I don’t want to get into a self-apologetic rant as to why I’m so awesome, but I think the path I took is entertaining and instructive enough to merit being told, so here we go. When I was a teen, I picked up a copy of Gamepro that had a guide on HTML in it. I didn’t have a computer back then, so I just learned the thing by heart until I got access to one when I first got into Cegep. Then I learned JavaScript, Perl, and got my hand on a cracked copy of Flash 4. Those were the days of Flashkit, I didn’t have much of a social life back then, so I flashed for fun, never for money. Then college came, the booze, the women, Nietzsche, so I had a lot of other things on my mind then Flash, and stopped programming. A couple years later, somebody contacted me regarding one of my old movies on Flashkit, and offered money so I could modify it, so I did. The person in question was a member of Juvenal Habyarimana’s family, who you might remember as the guy who got shot in Rwanda right before the genocide started. I wasn’t exactly fond of working on a brutal dictator’s apologetic biography site, but back then I was dirt poor, and it was good money, so I accepted after consulting friends who I would as unscrupulous. Some of the work I did I posted on actionscript.org as open source, and that got me some contracts, and a few months later I started a one-man business now known as 5 1/2. I didn’t do that well until I stumbled upon an almost dead project called amfphp. I offered a patch for it on the mailing list, and a week later I was basically handed the keys to the project. That got me on the map, and I got to work on tons of interesting projects.
So Flash gave me financial independence, I got to bike around Europe, hitch-hike around BC, and live all sorts of crazy adventures without ever worrying about money. After coming back from Europe, I was not sure I wanted to get back into school, and I flew to LA for a job offer at Blitz, John Grden’s old job as Interactive Director. The job was great, but LA wasn’t for me, I got tired of freelancing, so I settled on a job in Montreal. I quit the job after three weeks and then sat at home for about a month, feeling depressed. I had always had ups and downs, but I figured it must have had to do with stress, or pressure, but it happened to me in Europe, in BC, and now in Montreal when I was basically on vacation, had no stress, and had money, so I had nothing to worry about. I suspected that I might suffer from manic depression, based on my experiences and my family’s pretty bad mental health history. My sister, who’s 7 years older than me, became an IV cocaine abuser, a prostitute, and ended up having an aneurysm in the right parietal lobe, about the only thing that could have slowed her down. So while I saw doctors and got diagnosed I had to stay in Montreal, so I took another semester at McGill, as I figured it’d be better than staying at home doing nothing. It worked out quite well, and I decided to quit fucking around, finish my degree and eventually do a PhD in computational neuroscience. In the end, I got diagnosed with type I bipolar disorder, and I’ll start the medication in a couple weeks, which is I guess a good thing if I want to keep focusing instead of bifurcating and making random stupid decisions while I’m high or low. I wish I had known earlier, as I really screwed some clients over when I was either high (agressive, impulsive) or low (couldn’t set my fingers on the keyboard), and dropped projects without warning or came up with all sorts of excuses for being late.
So, anyways, it’s been a rocky road, I’m 24 and I still haven’t finished my degree, but I got a book deal, became head of a successful open source project, worked on awesome projects, traveled, read a ton of books, made a lot of friends and enemies and slept with an inordinate amount of women, so I guess I got a lot of life experience out of it, something that apparently doesn’t come from book learning. I’ll be working at the MNI this summer, hopefully we’ll be able to deflate some of the more fundamentalist views on Bayesian inference in motion processing in the primate visual cortex. I’m hopeful it’s the start of a brilliant research career, I started at the bottom in Flash only a few years ago and got reasonably close to the top, so I hope I’m not overly optimistic on this one.
I don’t want to get into a fight as to the future of Flash, but I will refer to Guy Watson’s post; Flash is just a tool, one that might get replaced in the near future, you shouldn’t base your life around it, and there’s a lot of things more important than technology and programming. I wish everyone would use the energy and time put into defending Adobe and Flash and invest it in something more useful, like helping out their fellow man, but I fear that’s wishful thinking. Finally, thanks to everyone who have supported or inspired me, who are too numerous to name, but I’ll try:
Andrew at K1 marketing who has my nicest guy in the world award for helping me out when I was stuck in Vancouver, Will who has been a steady victim of my mood swings, everyone who gave me a place to stay while I was in Europe, Micael, Tink, Thomas and Sonke, fellow bloggers Aral Balkan and Jesse Warden who I greatly admire despite our differences, anyone who’s been a victim of my sometimes not-so-subtle personal attacks, and Robert Penner and Keith Peters for inspiration.